Unexpected

Today started off gloomy. I woke up feeling distraughted and tired, for no particular reason. Didn't really have the mood to speak or do anything. I just wanted to lie there and let the hours pass me. But then again, there are classes to attend and a life to live. Classes in Uni was unusually bored and tiring today. Finished classes at 4.30 p.m. and headed straight home, with an empty stomach. I didn't even have the mood to eat. Got straight to bed as soon as i reached home. And i slumbered with the initial anticipation of my mood to get better after my rest.

I awoke in a darkened stuffy room. My room. It was already late in the evening. Staggered to the table to get my phone and was surprised to find two messages waiting for me. Two messages from two unlikely friends that would message me. I went through the first and found out that the second message was the same. This is what it wrote :

eng ting had an accident near usm n she passed away on d way 2 d hosp.TIS IS NOT A JOKE! Pls forward this msg to ppl who knew her.

I sat there trying to recompose myself from what i have read. Going through the message again and again. Trying to find any loopholes indicating that this is just a joke. But to no avail. I hurriedly turned on my com and look for any friend who might just know what the heck is going on. A deep sense of foreboding and somber began to dawn upon me. Although Lim Eng Ting wasn't that close to me, she was more than an acquaintance. She was my friend.

I stumbled upon ChakHon on MSN and i asked for more details. He knew her more than me and i'm sure he would know more about what happened. He said he wasn't sure, but roughly, she was knocked down by a car or something in front of her Uni. She was on a bike. They sent her to a nearby hospital. That particular hospital lacked the equipment to do anything. So, they decided to send her to another hospital. She passed away on the way there. She's only 21 years old.

I have very few memories about her. But enough to know that she was a very jovial and friendly girl. I've had small chats many a times with her. We often teased each other whenever we meet in school during F6. I can still remember her smile. And now she's gone. Until now, i guess that everyone who knew her are still dumbstrucked by what had happened to her this afternoon. Especially her classmates in our school. Their class had that specially knitted bond between them. Their closeness in a class had all the F6 classes looking at them with envy. I really hope that everyone of 6AB will accept this as God's will. She was a friend to many and an enemy of none. She has passed on to a better place, lying upon God's lap. May she rest in peace.


Courage, it would seem, is nothing less than the power to overcome danger, misfortune, fear, injustice, while continuing to affirm inwardly that life with all its sorrows is good; that everything is meaningful even if in a sense beyond our understanding; and that there is always tomorrow.

Dorothy Thompson


I know that this is very unexpected. Everything in life is so unexpected. Life is such an unpredictable road to be on. You will never know what is bound to happen at the next turn. Never.


I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.

Gilda Radner


This particular day had me worrying about all the motorists that i know. Especially my housemates. A few of them travel around everyday on bikes. Just as i was pondering about this, i saw an accident right before my eyes. It happened while i was walking home after dinner from SS2. A motorcyclist ramped into the side of a turning car. Both of them were going for the same turn at the same time. The rider flew across the bonet and landed on the road, hard. It happened not more than 20 meters in front of me. The rider wasn't moving after the fall. So, i ran towards the fallen rider. I was the first to be there and he had that blur and confused look in his eyes. And fortunately, he could still speak. When asked which part of him hurt, he said his legs. He couldn't move them. A few people were gathered around the rider and it was causing a long queue of cars jamming the road. So, the few of us slowly carried the guy towards the side of the road. The driver of the car was a woman fetching a few of her kids. She was as scared and confused as the fallen driver. Everything happened very fast. She didn't know what to do. She was just dumbfounded and stood there. A few cars that passed by stopped and offered to fetch that guy to the hospital. Seeing that everything was okay and in safe hands. I left, also dumbfounded by what had happened.

This is to all the motorcyclists out there: Please be very careful on the road. You will never know what will happen on the next turn. Its better safe than sorry. Its the tears of your family and friends that will flow if anything happened to you. Life is precious and it is short. Tomorrow will always be a mystery. Appreciate what you have today. It might be lost forever after today.


Love the moment. Flowers grow out of dark moments. Therefore, each moment is vital. It affects the whole. Life is a succession of such moments and to live each, is to succeed.

Corita Kent


Lim Eng Ting. I'm glad to have known her.. and i regret that i'm not that close to her. You will always be my friend and in my heart you will continue to live. I will learn to live my life as you have lived yours. And, continue on with your spirit and essence of life. Always.

Always.

A Day Out Alone

It's been quite some time (again) since i last blogged. *Sigh*.. i guess my lazy bones are up around me again. I haven't even studied for these couple of days.

*Slaps on the head*!

Well, for the past week, it passed like it didn't! Maybe that's because i've not done anything fruitful. Nothing!! I was like.. "Hey, another day's gone. Don't worry, tomorrow will come". And there goes my week.

To top it all, my mid-term's next week!! I'm not even half into my books. I know nuts about Mass Comm. And E-Pub, all i know are those html codes which i can remember a bit from CPS. Html are not even in the mid-term! *sobs* I really gotta buck up for these few more days, if i really wanna get a decent result for my mid-term.

Yesterday, was in a way kinda fruitful i would say. I was suppposed to go out with Ken, JingWen and YenLi to Midvalley to buy some stuff. But then, things got a little different from the original plan. I did go to Midvalley, but i went alone. Didn't know why, i just wanted to go alone. So, i left at a different time from them, saying that i'll meet up with them there. I went to Midvalley, with the heart to walk around alone. Maybe i just wanted to try what ALONE meant. When i first arrived there, i went straight to the ATM. I was down right broke at that time. Have you ever seen a guy go to Midvalley with just RM6 in the wallet? Yup, that's me *smiles and nods*.

And talk aboout ATMs.. *dang*! Forget about the long queues, after almost 20 minutes of queuing, the ATM have to show this. "This machine is now currently out of cash. The choice (1) Withdrawal will be unavailable. Sorry for the inconvenience caused."
It was 3 something in the afternoon at that time. And i haven't even eaten my breakfast yet!! What the heck am i gonna eat with 6 bloody bucks~?? So, i had to walk all the way to Ken to get 100 bucks, which luckily he got at the moment. It felt much safer with a hundred bucks in my wallet. I guess that just the nature of things these days. You won't feel safe if you had only 1 dollar and you won't feel any safer with 10,000. Weird huh?

So, with 100 bucks, i was determined to get myself some food. Some good ones at that! But everywhere was packed, every food outlet had to queue up just to get in. In the end, i got into Sushi King. It's easier to find a place, cause i went alone. And then, i ate to my heart's content!! Which resulted in a 43 dollar bill. Yeap, i ate all 40 something dollars alone. In Sushi King! Imagine how much i ate!!

After that, i went for a movie - "War Of The Worlds". After lotsa bad comments about the show from my friends, i took the time to see it for myself. It wasn't as bad as they said, it's just that the ending was kinda abrupt. Exactly like what my cousin said about the movie, "don't expect too much from it". Luckily i didn't. Its not what i anticipated of it. Nothing near "Independence Day" (i liked that show, OK?) and it was kinda like "The Day After Tomorrow". A few of the visual effects were "wow" and the rest.. nothing much. Almost all the somethings-gotta-blow-up-the-world kinda movie got these visual effects, so its not something special. I would give it a 6/10.

After the movie, i walked around feeling the complete freedom of not rushing to somewhere else and not following anyone. I can go anywhere i want. Anytime. Though it looked kinda stupid (to me, at first) to be walking around alone, watching a movie alone and eating alone, it still felt good. And then i just realized, "Who the hell cares if you're walking around alone. You don't even think twice when you see another guy who's doing the same thing." *SMILES* - the joy of realization.

I head on back to SS2 - Murni for a drink. And i bumped into Melvin and his roommate, Xen (i'm not sure how to spell it, it's pronounced that way). We got to talking and they asked me whether i wanted to follow them to Atmos later. I had nothing to do, so.. "Yeah, why not." A friend came to pick us up at Melvin's place. And so i head on to Atmos. I gotta tell ya'll, that place was filled with babes man! A lot of them. With the capital letters, A LOT. Did nothing much in there. Was just looking around, drank a bit and admired (and envied) the way they shuffled inside. But i did go round the dance floor to move a bit. So, after loads of sweating and dancing, we headed back around 3. And i reached home around 4. Took a bath and went straight to sleep. Day's over.

Well, come to think about it, fruitful might not be the word to use for a day such as this. It was kinda money and time wasting, but, i had my fun. And i don't do this often, so its ok. *pats myself on the back* . It's OKAY~ (reassuring myself i guess).

I was alone, for most of the day. It kinda rekindles my memories of once when i was single. And i am now back to those days.. single. Its OKAY to be single. It feels free.. and alone.

*pats on the back again* Its OKAY~